Gamzee sat alone in a dream bubble, he was always alone, because he'd feel terrible if he actually saw anyone, he was a wreak and he knew it.. the bard pulled his legs close to him and rested his head on his knees, he really just wanted to wake up, or just leave this dream bubble it's just made him feel even more alone, because it was a desert a huge desert, the Capricorn had happened to have found a nice shade cave though, were he just stayed waiting for it all just to end. He noticed a shadow by the entrance of the cave and buried his head further into his knees.
"..gamzee..?" he heard a familiar voice say, but the bard didn't budge he didn't want to see anyone and he tried his best to ignore them. Until a hand was placed on his shoulder.
"hey I know that's you gamzee, why won't you talk..?" The other troll said yet went silent when he heard a sniffle "g-gamzee?" the uncertain voice said, yet they were soon tackle hugged by the juggalo. Making them squeak a bit.
And through slightly muffled sobs a name could be heard "tavros.."
"yeah gamzee?" the dead brown blood said now trying to comfort his friend
"I fucking missed you like hell.." Gamzee said through more sobs
"same here gamzee.. " Tavros said with a sad smile
Gamzee leaned back to make eye contact with his friend, tavros's now plain white eyes met with his purple tear filled ones. "i-I'm sorry I just can't get my tears to stop.."
"it's okay.., I think I can understand.."
Gamzee latched onto his friend again purple tears still rolling out from his eyes "I've just been so alone… and afraid.."
"afraid of what..?"
"everything…, kanaya wants to kill me and I've practically lost everyone, I even lost you tav.."
"you never lost me gamzee"
"yes I did, I could've saved you, you could be still alive right now you could've reached god tier and we could've all saved the world, but I had to flip out, I never could save you.. I was just left with the heads of my friends…I lost everything tav bro.."
Tavros hugged gamzee "you didn't lose everything gamzee, you still have who you are, and you have me, you have many things, you've reached god tier and well, gamzee being dead isn't always all that bad, sure it get's kinda lonely but I've met up with a lot of our other friends, I've met nepeta and she forgives you, equius kinda just sweat a lot but I guess he forgives you too, and I'm fine being who I am now, this is what fate I ended up getting, and well I'm fine with it, I'm glad to see you're alive, and also god tier which is really cool, And well Gamzee when you wake up-"
"please don't go there…I don't want to wake up anymore.."
"gamzee you will at somepoint.., just be glad you're alive, and when you wake up live for both of us, okay?"
"live every day for me, and when your time comes I guess I hope I'll be around to greet you"
Gamzee sniffled a bit trying to smile "okay tav"
"also another thing.."
"even though I'm gone I want you to smile because in a way I'm always with you"
"how, I lost your head…"
"I'm not with you that way gamzee" Tavros said with a slight laugh and sigh of slight relief, he then put his hand over gamzee's heart "I'll be here with you, always" he said with a smile
"my chest?" Gamzee said with a puzzed look
Tavros giggled a little "somewhat but I'll be in your heart, as long as you remember me, okay?"
Tavros smiled, as so did gamzee but he still was slightly sniffling still, he just couldn't get himself to stop crying, he didn't know if it was happiness or sorrow but none of that matters right now.
"but I don't know how much longer I'll be here…"
"that's okay I can show you around, you don't have to be stuck here in this cave, I come here usually so vriska will stop following me, there is a better place that I found while wandering before"
Tavros stood up and held out a hand to gamzee, which the high blood gladly accepted as he stood up
"to be honest there's a lot of cool things here,and if we run into anyone that you don't want to see I'm sorry.."
"it's fine.." Gamzee said
"okay" Tavros said with a nod and walked off with his clowny friend following him.
"and not to make you sad or anything but I kinda like begin dead, there's no more stress anymore, and I don't have to try and be the strongest because I can be anything here, and I don't have to worry anymore, because well once you're dead you're kinda dead and can't die again" tavros said walking then glanced back to see that gamzee was looking down at the ground with a sad look on his face
"oh uh sorry gamzee to be honest I really liked being alive too, because I've I never was alive I'd probably would have never met you, and well that would kinda suck, I would've not met a lot of you guys and I'm glad I did, my life was really nice, there were a lot of good times and bad times, and I miss all of them."
Gamzee looked at tavros "it's fine I'm sorry if I'm throwing you off.."
"you aren't, sorry if I'm making you depressed.." the Taurus said with a small frown
"it's okay I've been kinda down for a while, I'm really happy to be here right now."
"oh okay…" the shorter troll mumbled
Gamzee looked around "hey where are we anyways…?"
Tavros shrugged "some desert, I guess, I don't completely know, there's no places that I can excastly where we are but that's not that big of a deal.. , if you wanted to we could go to a place you probably remember though"
"nah it's cool.." Gamzee said taking off his hood because the heat was kinda building up on his head
"but now that I think of it, if we try hopping dream bubbles you have a chance of waking up.."
"oh, well I guess we'll be here then just walking to someplace"
"yeah, I guess so, but there's also the chance we could just walk into a memory, you never know.." tavros pointed out.
"yep..but who knows, I'm not a master of dream bubbles and being dead"
"so I guess we'll just walk around, and you never know if we'll walk into someone.."
Gamzee nodded but soon stopped walking
Tavros looked over at his friend "is something wrong gamzee.?"
"not really, but I'd rather just spend some time with you for right now you already saw how much I was crying earlier and that was from just seeing you, if I see nepeta or equius I don't know what I'd do, or anyone else who's dead…"
"oh..well we could go to a cave again then?, or just somewhere.."
"that sounds fine with me…"
Tavros nodded then started heading another direction, with gamzee following alongside him
"hey gamzee, you know you should probably wake up at somepoint.." tavros mumbled looking at the ground
"why would you say that?"
"you're better off in the real world than here, you have things to do, you need to help save the world, and well everytime you sleep you can come back here… "
"but I'm not busy, I've been avoiding everyone… I reached god tier after sneaking away, no one knows where I am, not even karkat, and I haven't talked to anyone in a long time too.."
"well.. you should wake up, and go find them, they could be worried for you"
"Kanaya wants to kill me.."
"you could work something out with her maybe?"
"I don't know.. I think the first thing she'd do to me is stab me.."
"oh, what did you do to make her mad?"
"it was when I began to fuck everything up, i don't remember everything that happened…"
"also why do you want me to wake up?"
"because you need to"
"how do I need to I'll lose you again, and I'll go back to the actual world I like it here more"
"you won't lose me I'm always with you remember?"
"so I'd hate to lose you gamzee so please wake up"
Next thing gamzee knew he felt a hand on his shoulder, and everything was black, he could feel someone shaking him so, slowly slurred nonsense became words
"hEY,, uH gAMZEE, pLEASE WAKE UP"
"WAIT TAVROS I THINK HE'S WAKING UP"
"i THINK HE IS TOO,, gAMZEE?"
"WhA?" Gamzee's eyes opened slightly, he waited for them to ajust before he saw karkat and tavros by him, along with some other trolls
"SHIT, YOU HAD US WORRIED GAMZEE"
"yOU SUDDELY BLACKED OUT ON US,,wE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO"
"YEAH, AND TAVROS SAID WITH YOU THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME EVEN WHEN WE ALL LEFT"
"WaIt OnE qUiCk SeCoNd, WhAt HaPpEnD?"
"wELL, iT'S KIDA HARD TO EXPLAIN BUT"
"YOU'VE BEEN ASLEEP FOR A WHILE GAMZEE AND WE WERE ALL GETTING PRETTY WORRIED FOR YOU"
"wE THOUGHT WE LOST YOU"
"Oh.. WeLl I hAd ThE wEiRdEsT dReAm"
"cAN YOU TELL US?,, yOU DON'T HAVE TO IF YOU DON'T WANT TO THOUGH.."
"NaH, i'Ll TeLl Ya"
Gamzee then told his friends his dream, Karkat thought it was because of too much sopor and faygo and lefft, but tavros understood,
"wELL,, i'M GLAD i'M NOT DEAD"
"SaMe HeRe TaV, cAuSe I'd MiSs YoU, a LoT"
"bUT REMEMBER gAMZEE, i'M ALWAYS IN YOUR HEART"
"YeP" Gamzee said with a smile then hugged his friend "AnD i'Ll NeVeR lEt YoU dIe"
"tHANKS gAMZEE" Tavros smiled and hugged the Capricorn back.